Sleepless nights

It's a little after midnight, and I am unable to sleep. I realize there will be a lot more of these nights coming up with a precious baby coming in to our home, and I wanted to share a few of the things I have been feeling recently.

It's been a very long time Zane and I have been trying to start our family. There have been heartaches and disappointmens not shared - yet others that have been all too painfully public for friends and family to live through with us.

Recently, someone shared a qupte by Neal A. Maxwell that says "Faith in God includes faith in His timing". How true that is.

Each child is a miracle. I know that our son, who has waited so patiently all these years to come, has come at a time when his mother's heart needed healing the most. I had lost my faith in the opportunity to become a mother, and he has already begun teaching me... by not letting me give up on something that has been so important to my heart for my entire life. As I am writing tonight, he is practicing his "kung fu" kicks- and I hope he understands, and is prepared, for the world he is coming in to. He is a strong little man, and I pray I can do my best as his mother.

My husband is amazing. Zane works so hard to support our family. Recently, not only has he been working (it seems) day and night at his current job, but he is in the process of starting a new one. On top of that, he has had added responsibilites around the house- since I struggle physically getting some things done. I hope he knows just how much I love and appreciate him. I know I don't say it enough, and I hope he truly knows how I feel.

There are times I feel so overwhelmed - in a good way - at the blessings the Lord is sending my way. I have often wondered "who am I" that He would look down and smile on me, giving me so many incredible joys, blessings and treasures. I feel His love often, and am so blessed to be able to see, feel and experience the miracles in my life. They are countless!